Entries from my journal II

11 May 2006

Do you know what it's like to wake up and instantly be drawn to the one you love? To automatically think about how much you miss them, want them and only want to spend every waking moment with them? My heart is pulling me in that direction. Only one way I want to go, and that is where she is. Bask in her presence. Let time stop for just a short while, so one can remember and never forget the love we once shared.

8 May 2006

Feels like forever and 72 days. I miss her. But the more in depth I think about her and her actions and words the more I know I must keep doing what I'm doing.

7 May 2006

In order to keep "sane" I'll continue to write. She is who I would talk to at this time. Laugh with and enjoy. But no more, no longer. And it's killing me inside. All I can do to keep my mind going is trying to read. Trying to forget. Hoping to focus. I need someone to talk to. She is whom I shared a lot of conversation with. How does one go about that change? I'm dying inside. But after my complete death will there be a new birth? I hope so.